Friday, December 26, 2008

thanksgiving, christmas and such

i have been sick so many times since thanksgiving, it is really sad.

strep a few times, sinus infections, you name it, and today and going back to the doctor for a possible strep. there has just been too much going on for me to truly get better, so while the medications make me feel better, they are not able to truly work properly.

juju has been amazing! santa treated her so well due to her being so nice and donating instead of getting presents for her birthday!

she got a blue electra bike, the impossible to find mia american girl doll, and many MANY more things she wanted.

i am ready for my parents to go back to florida. in one day my mother fell and smacked her eye so badly she should have gotten stitches, but before that could be dealt with, my father announced he thought he was having a stroke.

a ride to the ER and tests later, he had a TIA, or a mini stroke, not really a stroke, but no damage done. just way to much stress for me to handle anymore.

i need a break from them, really.

much more to fill in, but i am going to relax and read and catch up a bit on the real world...

Thursday, November 20, 2008

birthday's, donation's and such

 has been a busy few weeks!

juju had her joint birthday party with maria. they raised a lot of pet and people food for donation. it was so touching. honestly, i think that lil 8 year old gal managed to get about 300 dollars worth of pet items donated, including a 10 dollar check, a 20 dollar gift card to shop rite, and another to target for a surprise amount!

and i think 300 is the low side. there were so many bags of food, huge 10 lb boxes of dog bones, shampoos, cases of wet cat and dog food, toys beds and so much more AND we got more yesterday after school!

we dropped the food off the other day and i have to say i was a bit bummed at their lack of wow from the shelter folks of this 7 year old who got them all this stuff. i even called earlier int he day to let them know she was coming and thought maybe they would be nice and make her a thank you card or a birthday card, even a paper computer generated one, but nothing...they claimed they are naming a kitty after her (we saw no no-named kitty anywhere as we walked around on our own), and i think she was kind of bummed. there was a HUGE pile of goods there and they were like, oh that was so sweet, thanks, do you want to go look at the dogs and kitties? and then we walked in by ourselves...

really, it was such a non event to them, and i can tell she was a bit bummed they were not even enthusiastic at all...rather, blah about it really....i mean a 7 year old gave up getting prezzies for this shelter and they were so blah about it.

if she decides to do it next yeat, we will go to another shelter to donate....

yesterday was the lil girls real birthday. she was allowed to wear her regular clothes to school, and was that fun picking out! she also had munchkins for the birthday snack for everyone.

dinner was at the club with my parents and she wanted a hot dog! and then proceeded to eat my dad's caesar salad and my sweet potato fries!

it was a great night and when she opened my gifts of the mini horse barn and horses and my mom's gift of the wii, she preferred to play with my gifts and put off us hooking up the wii til this weekend! how awesome is that, really?

oh, a little aside to meet mike gordon the other day outside the phil show. he was freezing, had to wait a while for his pass, AND when he and i were talking about old shows and all good where he almost ran me over with the golf cart (not only did he remember it, apparently there is video), some guy with a finger in the air looking for that phil ticket, asked," what band are you in?", mike sheepishly looked at him and said, "i am in a band called phish"...very odd moment for me since i have been going to phish shows since friends older sister was friends with trey and jon, i raged with them at amy's farm (though we were all drinking the big igloo kool aid that weekend!!! in 1991)...seeing him feezing outside waiting for his lammie and folks asking who he is was so strange!

and watch, that kid will be at the show in march trying to get in there to and if mike ran him over with a golf cart he would have no idea who he was, he only asked because he was listening to us talk hoping to get in or a ticket!

ah well, tour kids, what are you gonna do with them?

live to tour, no matter who or what it is, no longer really about any band, just being on tour is all they seem to care about anymore...

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

winning stuff , giving away stuff and such

just wanted to make note of this and a few other things i missed when ranting earlier....

juju and i attended a halloween party at her gymnastics gym on sunday and they gave every family that attended a ticket for a raffle of full tuition.
my lil girlfriend put our last name on it and stuck it in the bowl...well she won!
it is a full semester tuition which we were going to pay next week to get the discount rate of $390!

yay for saving money and being lucky...well my lil girl is pretty lucky in that respect as this fall she attended a car show in town with my dad and myself. there you entered a form to vote on what car you want to win and from those, they draw raffle winners. well she won a $50 gift certificate to a hair salon! she has yet to use it as she is currently growing out her hair to donate to locks of love, but she also wants to grow out enough so when she does donate it, she still has longish hair (past shoulders), so currently her hair is almost to her bum!
when she does go to donate it, it does not cost anything to get it cut! so that gift certificate will have to wait!

my lil girlie is such a sweet kid, aside from the locks of love thing, her birthday party is coming up in two weeks. she is having a joint birthday party with a good friend from school, maria. they are having a skating party and juju had decided that instead of getting gifts from her friends at school, she wanted them to bring food to be donated to the local animal shelter.

maria thought that was so cool, she is asking for food to be donated to the food pantry!

yay for 7 year olds being socially responsible!

i also sent a request to senator lautenberg from nj requesting two tickets to the inauguration. i highly doubt we will get them, but hey, it is worth a try no? i think juju would enjoy a trip to dc and see history before her eyes. she was so excited to go vote with me yesterday.

obama, race and such

it has been less then 12 hours since they declared obama our president elect obama, and already something about this is really pissing me off....

not him getting elected, please, if that is where you think this is going, close your ignorant eyes and move away from my blog...i don't handle stupid or ignorant well at all...

what is really bugging me so soon is the sheer ignorance of the media and all of these so called supporters promoting the shit out of the "First African American President".

what are you doing? why must you label him in such a way...what about first hawaiian president? what about just calling him president? why must we make him a novelty ack, like william hung?

can we as a people move past the fact he is HALF black?

how about we call him what he really is African/European American?

what about me? i never ever feel the urge to call myself eurpoean you know why?

because i am an american!


and so is barak, president elect obama...

i have been tossing around a little thing where i paraphrased a famous recent quote from president elect obama and it goes a little something like this...

we are not african americans or eurpoean americans, we are just americans!!!!!

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

cereal, voting and such....

today is E day!!!! i don't care who you vote for, heck write in your dog! just go vote, it is your right and yes, it is your right not to, but why?

why allow people to make decisions for you? when you were a kid and could not wait to turn 18 so no one could tell you what to do anymore, that is when you are legal to vote, you can tell others what to do, so do it!

i will be heading to the polls after i pick up my lil girlfriend, juju bean. she and i are opposite in our decision, but since she is 7, well let's just say mama's vote will count and hers will not. we have agreed she is to keep my vote secret, as it is not open to any discussion to anyone other then myself. after majoring in poly sci and being a part of a very political family, i prefer to keep my political leanings to myself and that way when i do discuss politics (which i love to do) people will not assume to know what party i stand for or who i vote for and base their debate/argument aound that, giving me their true beliefes and allowing me to have true and pure political discussions....

gosh i really am a dork!

on a really cool making own decision/election day have my voice heard....

i created and ordered my own personal custom healthy cereal!
yuppers, my own personal was pricey, but i am so excited! i should have it in hand this weekend, maybe monday, but how cool! go and take a peek at it and see...they have premade ones and prices vary based on your choices of ingredients. I love cereal and nutty cereal is my favorite.

artisanal cereal

i named it muffin's NUTTY! thinking back now, i should have created some sort of clever election day title for it....

i also purchased the one dollar green tag, offsetting my carbon footprint for this order AND 5% of profits for the company go to charity!

ah well!

hindsight and all.....

Sunday, November 2, 2008

wow and such

today has been a beautiful day! as was yesterday and the days before.....

today i got a 20 dollar bill with red ink all over asking me to register it at where's george. since i am a part time user, i of course dutifully went and registered it and read up on the person who released it initially with all this writing all over it.

mine was the first hit since she initially registered it over two years ago...

then i read this, "Sharon's desire for a cure for cancer wasn't just an idle wish -- she succumbed to the disease on January 13, 2007. Her many friends here were deeply grieved by her passing, and it's not quite the same around here without her compassionate heart and wry humor. We miss you, Sharon!"

she never got to see this bill get a now I am not sure what to do with this bill...
i hate thinking of it just randomly going back out into the world, then again, she liked that..

i think maybe this should go on to a more noble life, but how?

I was able to head to NYC last night for a phil lesh & phriends show. it was insane, to say the friend was there friday on halloween and he was sending me the set list while i was a my friend niki & george's bar for their annual halloween bash.

just a lil side note, i was bristol palin! i had a big ole rpeggers belly, a baby on my arm (my "brother", trig), black dress and a wig done just like hers at the convention where she "came out" in a bun in the oven kind of way....many laughs were had and sadly, many folks who had no idea who bristol palin was (even with full expenation), or who SARAH palin was when explaning it, AND folks asking if I am really preggers and when I said, "yes, and THIS is a real baby (*doll in hand*) ", and they were stupid enough to look shocked and say, "really???" all horrified. i walked away....

so, back to phil.....and jackie, and john, and larry, and barry, and tracy......oh what a show...
phil was late, he even apologized at one point, but the show was sick...

terrapin was not just off the hook, it was almost disco/rock. i have to find a copy of that show.
opened with here comes sunshine, shortened set break and played over the midnight cut off, which sucked because felt like they were planning on playing longer!!!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

sad, maybe a tad pessamistic and such

after posting on twitter that i am finally seeing I Am Sam, a movie that has been recommended to me many times over not only for its sound track, but for the touching story, i get a response back from someone that kind of took me back a bit...

"I saw it. I found it cute, though as far as movies go, uneccessary." just, wow...what a thing to say.....

today has been one of those days....i have had to deal with people being mean and just not paying attention...

i had to purchase tickets for friends to see phil and asked the tickets be shipped to them directly.
i emailed the guy i was buying the from and asked they be shipped there...for 190 bucks i would expect they ship them anywhere i want.

so i get a notice from fed ex saying the are coming here...i email the guy a few more times hoping he did not mail them off in a rush and not pay any attention to where they are supposed to be mailed.

he has the BALLS to email me back and say i am the type who is gives a bad vibe.
i replied thanking him for changing the address, but as for the "bad vibes" my reply was nice and sweet and to the FUCK YOU point...

you don't understand... the tickets could not come here as they would never
get to him in philly without an additional few hours added to his
drive to NYC for a night...

as for vibe killler, I tried emailing you numerous times which is why
i was freaking out as you got the paypal message and got to shipping
without checking the emails i was sending via ebay and yahoo.

when i get fed ex info about shipping i get really worried you dropped
it off on your way home in the fed ex box....

if they had come here, well it would have sucked for you and i as they
would never hvae been returned in time and i would have had to get a
refund and that really would have sucked as you would have been out an
already profitable deal for yourself as I know these were well above
face (talk about a vibe killer)

so please be sure they go to the correct address tomorrow and all will be good!


i think my point made it across, normally i am really not this bitchy and such, but after having been holed up in the house sick as all get out, i really had no patience for this type of shenanigan today at all!

ok, back to watching I Am Sam, up way too late and finally feeling some waht normal again!!!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

just posting this here as proof as I sent it to starbucks and if they use it I want my credit dammit!!!

Reusable Java Jackets

my idea is to reduce the amount of java jackets that are thrown away...while it is nice to think of reusing them (the cardboard ones), people get weirded out...

and while not everyone carry's reusable cups because they are messy and have to be cleaned and so on, there is an AWESOME and very happy medium starbucks can use!

sell reusable java jackets!!!

they can me made of fabric, be washable, made with organic and sustainable fabrics (hemp, bamboo, cotton, you get the idea), and sold int he shops, maybe fair trade, or made in the USA (we forget about this lil ole country of ours).

this way, people can carry a smell thing that lets them at least help the environment a little bit more then just using the paper ones, while also making life a little easier by not having to carry a bulky cup all day as you run around (wish I could, but frankly sometimes it is just not possible).

This can be easily stored in a pocket and used when needed!


sick and icky and such...

i have been trying to keep this nasty cold/throat/crappy thing away from me. it has been hovering around my head for a few days and yesterday, it felt it staking out its turf.

today, it appears to have framed out the house and started on the drywall...but i am working hard to get rid of it....

i have been keeping myself busy on twitter to quell the urge to bake. when i don't feel well i love to bake, but i rarely ever eat what i bake (it is weird, i know, but i give it away, i just truly enjoy baking it).

so if i was to bake, i could not give it away as i am sick and especially no one in the house can eat it because it has only been three weeks yesterday since my dad had his heart ouside his body being worked on! sorry, i am saying that because it is just so freaking mind blowing it was three weeks ago and that is how they do it....just a shut the fuck up moment from me about the progress modern medicine has made!!!

on top of all that, it is a certain time for me, so being sick and crampy makes for a really unhappy, uncomfortable muffin right now....

see, sick and icky are the words of the day....

Monday, October 20, 2008

cranky, ice, and such

woke up to a very cold, frosty morning here in beautiful nw nj! awesome!!!

it was so cold last night the birdbath outside my window is frozen over and the poor little critters who make my back yard their home are not getting why their water is hard!
they touch it and bend over and are simply puzzled by the entire situation. adorable!!!

i have been feeling a bit ranty lately. what with the election coming up and how i refuse to declare a party based on the fact that when one does in nj, they are bombarded by their party waste of trees flyers, and the opposing parties dirty tactics to make you convert, waste of valuable resources in paper and trees!
it really comes across as an invasion of privacy. and don't try to convince me that you need me to be declared to vote in a primary. honestly, i believe that since it is my right to vote for any candidate i want in the big elecetions, why can i not do the same in the primary?
i can go much deeper here and truly expose my poly sci background (wait, if you do, i need to get my goggles and lab coat first), but when it comes down to it we sould be allowed to vote for anyone, primary or the big show.

my father is doing very well. he is heading back for a follow up with his GP today, so we will see what he thinks of his progress.
my father turns 72 on oct. 25th, so as a gift, i called and spoke to the people at . i will bring the damaged hubcap over today and see if they can fix it for me. dad is happy, as he was going to have it fixed and i am always trying to find him unique gfts or things i know mean something mroe then just a present that nothing ever happens with. i will swing in there later this afternoon, and i am looking forward to it as they are taking cars to a car show, and they don't just have classic cars, if you know anything about vintage cars, the big guys from the 20's and such, go check out their jaw dropped...and it is a few miles from me, so when i drive by, i always try to sneak a look in the garage when they are open in the summer, but today i get to go inside! and they have a few cars heading to a car show, which means their top of the line stuff is going to be out! yay!!!

i have been entertaining myself with flickr. i have had a pro account for years, but never utilized the edit features, until yesterday. i heard they had a zombify feature, and well, i found the new halloween "card" to be emailed for halloween!

i find this feature to be so much fun! they have all kinds of masks and such you can play with.
i might just have to upgrade in picnik to use some of the other features as there are some amazing effects!

i have oodles of things to do today (i just really wanted to say oodles)....stitch markers to make, and other random things to get done just in case i do get accepted to the craftacular!

gots to go.......

Friday, October 17, 2008

the dead...penn state and egypt in one week!

the penn state show was beyond amazing. honestly, the one thing that could have made it truly great was if jerry were still alive.....then again they probably would not have played an obama benefit. see, folks get all uppity when you discuss how the dead were not a political group. they always come back at you with counter culture and how that was a political statement, BUT they never came out and openly endorsed anyone because they knew they had big influence over people and wanted to make sure people decided for themselves, as that is truly at the heart of what the dead stood for....being your own person. that was their political statement, not who you should vote for, or who they back..... so, i digress, as usual, back to the show...... the set, one huge set, was amazing.... the almans were good, smokin even, then a long break with some obama rally up, then he had a prerecorded message where he introduced the boys...

they came out and each one came out and cheers was amazing!

billy and phil hugged

they tuned

then it began....

us blues
dark star
st stephen
unbroken chain
other one
playin reprise

touch of grey (and billy kept playing with micky, when they sang the verse he would rub the sides of his grey hair! and as a reference to the "joke" obama made before the show about how the campaign has given him a touch of grey, or something along those lines)
not fade away

we checked into our hotel room in the afternoon and spent the day on the lot, seeing old friends, celebrating birthdays and other such wonderful things! we got back about 3am, and went to sleep.

the next moring we went to penn state book store to pick up a few things for my mom and juju bean, hit up a farmers market around the corner for some amazingly tastey cave aged cheddar from 20 mins from penn state, got some organic yum green beans and a jar of organic salsa for dad (the cheese was for him too, and they polished that off shortly after I handed it over!)

we ate at baby's and I had hush puppys with fried shrimp, not as good as down south, but still good!

yesterday, i purchased tickets for NYE with Boyy & Phil. I have to wait til next week to get the Dec 30th show, but that is fine, as long as I know I have NYE, I don't to arrange the flights, hotle and everything else!

oh yeah, and yesterday was bobby's birthday!

happy birthday bobby!

Saturday, October 11, 2008

scones and such

a lovely scone is just a great way to make people smile.

my father had his surgery and has not really been eating like before, with good reason, as his chest was opened, heart removed and so on....

so today while juju was dancing, i ran up to the most wonderful breakfast/lunch place in town, stella g's.
now most places would kill to have a shop like this, but they moved here to retire and be close to their grandkids, and lucky us, she is a renowned pastry chef and he has i forget how many stars, chef. they decided to open a little breakfast place to take up time, and well, it is divine!

last trip there about 4 weeks ago, i had the special sour cream waffle with blueberry's and turkey sausage. simply other had eggs benedict, lee had the other special, breakfast burrito, and dad had a simple egg brekkie with hash and such. everything was beyond good.

i stopped in and purchased three freshly made from scratch scones, lemon cream, bluberry with orange glaze and nutmeg current. they wrapped it in a lovely pastry box with a big ribbon! it looked so fancy. my mom and dad were so happy when we returned, their little ballerina bouncing into the house in her leotard, sweater and skirt in pink, carrying the lovely pink ribbon box filled with crumbly delights!

so, i guess the moral of the story is, when in hackettstown, home of the m&m, go to stell g's and eat, but be sure to grab some scones for later!

Friday, October 10, 2008

i shall be released

finally blogger saw fit to release me from my spam hold....
took about a week, but i was able to post and save to my blog, which was nice.

i hope to get my new patterns in today so i can get those listed, but you know what? i am going to go relax and check back on the 'puter later today...

Thursday, October 9, 2008

grateful dead converse!!!

i was flipping through this awesome magazine i am subscribed to called missbehave, when low and behold in their cool sneaker section were grateful dead sneakers!
i did a little web searching and poof, today my new skull and roses high top chucks arrived!!!

they are so nice, even the insides are nice and the patch is sewn on, not that weird rubbery thing they normally have.
my next pair will be the ice cream and possibly either a stealie in black, or an owsley bear in low top black...the decisions are tough!

monday is a holiday and juju is off from school, but i will be away at the rock for change show in penn state!!!!

i am not sure yet who i want to vote for, honestly, but hey, if barak can get the boys back together after the "blow up" in 2004, i am all for it!

wow, i am very excited today!!!!

Monday, October 6, 2008

business and such

i went ahead and ordered a bunch of new patterns from sublime and suprise!!! she had released 4 new ones....

i am really excited about this as i always love new stuff!

juju has been having a good time with my brother since he came in for the operation on my father. my father, however, has made a miraculous recovery and had a pacemaker put in on friday and was relased (GASP) saturday afternoon!
we had no idea he would be released so early, in fact i stayed home waiting to hear if i could see him as i had the sniffles (and still do), when my mother called and said to bring clothes, he was getting sprung at 4 pm....good thing i got there early, because they literally sprung him at 4! usually hospitals are awful at getting folks discharged, but not there!

so dad has been here...he was walking saturday and sat at the table and at with us...since then he has been moving mroe and feeling better, though he is sleeping in the living room on the chair, which is understandable.

i cannot get over how fast he is recouping or how little he looked cut up. apparently his doctor was THE guy for nano surgery and makes minimal cuts. in fact, have you heard of the new gall bladder surgery where they go through the stomach down the throat via the mouth? yeah, the big time experimental one? he is that guy...that is what he does, he specializes in it...just amazing!

back to the juju bean...she is going to stay home from school tomorrow. she was not feeling well tonight when lee took her apple picking and she was a bit sick, so since they have not had that much time together and he leaves wednesday, i figure rather then have her come home from school tomorrow and have a ton of shool work , making their time together very little, she can stay home and hang out with uncle lee and get her tummy feeling better!

one last little thingy...

blogger has marked me as spam...i have no idea why, i am not a spammer, i really do not want to go through this as i just wanted to post today and not worry about things like this, but come on blogger/google monsters...make your software work more better for us interweberz please?

Friday, October 3, 2008

crafting is my middle name

i love to craft....craft anything

i am no expert, rather i am a beginner who loves to make all different things, but nothing is complicated.

i knit, but only the basic stitches, i bead, but simple stuff, and so on and so forth

i would love to learn more complicated things, but have no one to teach me and written directions are so impossible for me to follow. i don't know if it is the dyslexia that makes it so, but unless i can watch someone do it or have them explain it to me as i do it, then i cannot learn it no matter how hard i try.

i am currently working on an apron i am embroidering for a friend. i am using some of the patterns from sublime stitching (which i sell at my etsy/website on a basic black three pocket apron. Niki from Bar 46 ( asked me to make her one for the days she wants to wear dresses or skirts and still have her bottle opener on her.

i have roller skates and a unicorn, i will be free handing a rainbow above the unicorn and metallic stars around the roller skates. the middle pocket will have the bar 46 logo on it and i just hope she likes it.

so while i am not the most experienced crafter, or skilled, i do make all different things and sell them on my site. i love making the mr. t chocolcate lollipops and stitch markers are fun!

ok, so as a crafter whore, i love going to the bust craftacular every year...the most amazing items and dj's and open bar and....well just too much to try and list, you just have to go and experience it (
so, anyway, i decided to try and apply for it. i paid my ten dollars and if, huge IF, i make it in, it is 240 additional for a 8' x 30" table and two chairs to vend...

i do not expect to get in at all, but still it is a nice idea and if i did, i would probably pass out. i submitted stitch markers and mr t chocolate lollies as samples of only some of the stuff i sell, so we shall see....

on to other things now........

today is my mother's birthday. she is currently at the hospital as my father needs a pacemaker and a defribulator and my dad was refusing it earlier (he has been exhasuted from not sleeping and half out of his mind because he slips in and out all day long, about 1 min awake, 1 min sleeping). she and my brother will be there today, everyone else will stay away in an effort to let him get as much rest as possible. the procude he is in now is about 2 hours and i am just about at my wits frayed ends....

i am trying to keep very busyto keep my mind off of it, but it is hard, so i am going to go and rescrub the sink or something....

Thursday, October 2, 2008

update for dad and stuff

the surgery went well...they ended up having to do a double bypass and replace the two valves.
they have him on a temp pacemaker, but when they try to take him off of it, his heart rate drops to 30-36 bpm

it was a little scary, but he was actually standing and marching in place the day after the surgery. he had some bleeding, they ended up giving him 2 transfusions. initially during the procedure, he did not need any and that really pleased the doctor, but then he kept leaking, so they had to give him two, kept him in icu for two days, now he is in cardiac care unit.

he goes in tomorrow for the icd and is a very routine procedure, but with everything going on, i am really still on edge.

i am going to kept this short and not go into the debate that is on and all that hoopla, i will let this evening go for now and watch silly movies....

Monday, September 29, 2008

stress and stress and stress and friends

my father is having heart surgery tomorrow...

this is his third one, so he knows what it is like and all of that. the thing is he is super stressed about this one. he has convinced himself that he is high risk even though the doctor who is performing the operation has said he is not.

he and my mom have been married for over 49 years ( sept 12 was their anniversary) and they are very close. met in college, married after they graduated, wrote love letters when they went to two different colleges their junior and senior year, and so on.....

they have been not really speaking because of how bad the stress is on my dad. i have been that one between them for weeks now, and it has really been wearing on me.

last night, while waiting to leave for the movies (which was not the best choice by the way...good movie, but with my dad going in for surgery tomorrow, seeing ghost town last night not, such a good way to fuel my already overly emotionally state) i sat at the upstairs computer and was going to play a little text twist. when the screen came back from screen saver, there in front of me was my dad's obituary.

that was one of the most awful feelings i have ever had. i have only lost one close family member, my grandmother, and that was 8 years ago.

i have lost friends, very close ones, but it cannot come close to the awful feeling i had when i saw my dad's obit....gut wrenching does not even begin to come close.

but, i have these amazing people in my life who have been there for me so unconditionally, i cannot begin to express my gratitude to them for their friendship that asks nothing but gives me such support at this time...

there is so much more i wanted to add to this, but i have had it opened and pecked at it all throughout the day, that i need not only to put this to bed, but myself (and i started this about 1pm today and it is now 2 am)


Saturday, September 27, 2008

bakey bakey fall sessions!!!

so i love to love love.....

part of how i got the nickname muffin is because of my baking skillz, and yes it is spelled with a z because they are that amazing, or so i am told..normally i am not a big ego person, but when it comes to certain foods, yeah i know i got talent, yo...just representing for myself 'cause if i don't then who will? don't hate the playa, hate the baked goods the playa produces...

ok, so enough of that.....yesterday i had to bake a little something for my juju's bake sale at school, so i decided on my favorite banana bread.
unfortunately for me, i had no ripe bananas on hand, so bought four of them and when i got home, i went to town....and i am going to share this recipe with anyone who is willing to read my drivel

mind you, i try to make everything using all organic ingredients, so i won't bother saying organic in every piece, just know it is organic

four really ripe bananas, the blacker the bedder (teehee) MASHED, sometimes it is nice to have them clumpy, other times I use a ricer to get them like baby food for a nice smooth bread

1 egg

1/4 cup melted butter

a generous splash of apple juice (about a 1/4 cup to half, but only use 1/4 in the wet, and use more later if too sticky)

1 1/2 cup flour

1 cup sugar (sometimes i use half sugar half honey or something along those lines, also if you love apple, you can use some apple sauce in place of the sugar...)

1 tsp baking soda

1 tsp salt

cinnamon to personal taste (depending on time of year I love more in fall and winter and just a little in summer)

If you like, you can use nuts or dried fruit as well, but again depending on time of year I either add tons or nothing!

mix the wet together, being careful the butter is not hot as it can cook the egg if added when it is too hot or too fast...drizzle it in slowly to warm the wet...

sift together the flours, sugar, salt, baking soda and cinnamon. add slowly to the wet, mixing well and not adding too much to create the flour crop dusting of me and my counter!

heat the oven to 350 degrees F...

grease a bread pan (I use the 9x5 usually, or I think that is the size) with your choice, I use butter, but pam or what have you will work well

once the mix is well incoperated and smooth, if you notice it seems a bit sticky, or really think, add spalsh of apple juice to thin it a careful, you don't want it runny, but a nice smooth thick is fine

Now if when you would add any dried fruits or nuts.....sometimes I sprinkle the top with brown sugar or a granola mix

bake for 65 mins....once you take it out check it with a tooth pick in the middle...if it comes out clean, it is done...if not put it in another 5 mins and recheck

sometimes it is fun to eperiment with things in these breads, like using coconut flour in place of a bit of the flour, using whole wheat, using apple cider instead of juice...whatever...this is your bread to have fun with!

I love baking them and giving them to friends randomly just to see their face light up when they know what they are getting, one of muffin's surprise filled 'nana breads!!!!

Friday, September 26, 2008

sometimes it's hard to focus...

it has been a while for me and blogging...i used to blog a lot, you know LJ for many years, then a bit on blogger here, then vox...

i realized i was living so much of my life on blog that i was living to blog....

i had some major life changes and decided to go out and live and not feel the need to make everything about posting, or remember to post, or what have you.

lately i have felt the urge to go back into my blog and thought that maybe making a new one to signify the fresh start may be a good thing. it is a pretty crazy train of thought rationalizing about whether to blog or not to blog.

my father is getting ready for heart surgery come tuesday and it has been really hard on us, my mom and myself. they are not really speaking or if they are, it is curt and short.

mind you, they love each other, they have been married for 49 years this past september and it is not that. it is the sheer amount of stress my dad is having with the surgery (his third open heart) and he convinced himself he is high risk, when his doctor's (some of the best heart guys on the east coast) tell him he is not.

my lil business on the web is rolling along fine. i would love to be able to stock more in it, but i am getting there slowly.

i applied to the bust craftacular in december, and while I would not sell the sublime patterns since jenny has a booth there every year, I would love a chance to get my stitch markers and onesies and Mr T chocolate lollipops out there to a main stream market.

well, who knows...i am not counting on getting in as i go to the craftacular and i don't think i am nearly as cool or funky as those vendors i buy from, but a girl can dream big!